Well, hello there! LONG time no hear from me. At least here. If you follow me elsewhere… nevermind.
I’m (semi-)back online, posting on Wattpad, complaining on Twitter, sharing my cats with the world on Instagram, listening to SHINee on Spotify, replaying SuperM’s 100 on YouTube, and ignoring Facebook. My social media life probably won’t last, but you can pretty much catch me online often these days. If you want to leave a message, Twitter, Wattpad and IG are probably the best places to because I read messages there.
ICYMI, I posted Geoffrey’s story on Wattpad. You remember him? The eldest unico hijo? CEO of Arellano Industries, kuya to James, David and Renner? Well, I finished his book early this year, and submitted it to the publisher a few months ago. The book’s been completed so if you want to read it, it’s called An Heiress for Geoffrey.
I actually had a LOT of plans for 2020 but the pandemic happened + depression and anxiety (not even related to the pandemic), and now the recession… let’s just say I’ve been having problems coping. I actually stopped posting on Wattpad earlier this year because with everything that has been happening, I sincerely believed that whatever I do would be meaningless in the face of a global crisis. That was my depression talking though. I realized later that the world actually needed artists, storytellers, musicians. etc. more now than probably ever. So let’s just say I kicked my depression’s ass (for the time being) and got to work. I’m taking baby steps though, so matumal pa rin ang UDs.
I’m also trying to work on the foundations of my 2020 plans. I’m starting with Never Stop Falling | LexIca and The Harder I Fall | CharLon. I’m doing my best to update both stories every other week (alternately). Please keep in mind that I’m doing this between being a pet momma to eight cats and a dog, and a house ate to a sister who goes to work, so either I’d have to skip days or post late, OR the updates are short. But I’ll do my best. I’ll also… actually, I already AM working on the other books because I do want to finish ALL on-going stories so I can start the others.
Oh, I would also like to thank the people who “bought coffee” for me through my Buy Me a Coffee account. THANK YOU. It’s also been difficult for me, financially. Like now, I’m already anxious about where I’m going to get money to pay the electric bill again.
Let’s just say that I feel like I’m part of the 45% of adult Filipinos who lost their jobs this year despite not actually really losing my job. I’m a freelancer so I only have a “job” when I actually work, but when you work and then you don’t get paid… I guess that’s not even “unemployment” ano? So thank you to everyone who has bought me a coffee, or several cups of coffee.
I’m thinking of something to do to say thank you. It would probably be advance reads on unreleased books or drafts, but it would be something exclusive to everyone who supported and is supporting me at BMAC.
I posted on Twitter that I realized that the morbid reason why I wanted to write as much as I can as fast as I can is that I might not make it to 2021, and it’s unfair to the people in my head if I can’t write their stories. I still feel that way but as I said, it’s probably regular pandemic/recession anxiety. With my financial problems and the state of my mental health and my lack of life skills and a vision, I’m still better off than a lot of Filipinos who lost loved ones or their livelihood or their homes. My sister and I still have a home, food and water, electricity (although I’m sure malapit na ‘yung maputol for non-payment but whatevs. I’ll deal with that later), our cats and dog, and our family kahit malayo sila. I’m still thankful though my heart bleeds for everyone. I just hope and pray and trust that we can kick 2020’s ass, too.
Anyway, I have a baby cat to feed and lunch to cook and an update to write, so I’m stopping here.
Wash your hands. Use alcohol. Wear your masks and face shields. Take care of yourself and of each other. We can do this.